Messy Change

6993_10151560706114478_1896138724_nMy family has been watching the History Channel’s series, “The Bible,” and one phrase of a recorded episode stood out to me . . . especially with Easter fast approaching.  In this episode, Jesus looks at someone and tells them that they need to be “born again” to experience the Kingdom of God.  It was a powerful scene with the Pharisees looking on with skepticism and anger.  Jesus was trying to teach those around him about God’s message of love for them and God’s hope for their hearts to change.

As Methodists, we tend to not use the “born again” language very often.  But, what I hear in that phrase is a simple word: CHANGE.   I’ve had to do a lot of changing over the past few years – some of it was much needed and other parts of the change was to better my marriage.  It was worth it – all of it.  I lost a lot of weight and actually look and feel better now than I did ten years ago.  I’ve learned how to truly forgive – not just forgive and move on, but forgive and expect nothing in return for the hurt done to me (yes, that was a tough one).  I have become a more confident and loving person, happier and better able to be secure in who I am.  All of these changes were good and necessary.

I would be lying if I said the changes were easy.  Changing your heart . . . changing  how you feel about things . . . changing the way you look at others, is very challenging.  It was down right messy.  I had to crawl through the muck to get to the light.  I had to face things about me that hurt and made me feel ashamed of the person I had been.  I had to first learn to forgive myself so I could move on to forgive others.  Yea, it was a mess.  But now I sit here like a butterfly out of her cocoon.  I’m flying now, full of life (NEW life) and filled with the love of Christ.  You see, the changes I made were because I wanted to be the woman GOD created me to be, not the woman I had become.  I knew that God called me to be a better mother, wife, friend and servant.  And God still calls because change never stops.  We should always strive to be better people, to change our hearts to that of a Christ-like love.

Clawing my way through the mess to accomplish change in my life was so worth it.  I know I’m not done.  But, I know that I’m on the right path and continue to be.  God has blessed me so much through this process of growth and I pray that you will consider this journey yourself.  Easter has come and now is the time for a resurrection in your life.  Be new in the Spirit, “born again” to the life of Christ.  It’s never too late.  Take it from a 42-year-old “new” woman :).  May this Easter bring new blessings to you, my friend!

About revmonica

I'm the Director of Growth Ministries at Williamsons Chapel United Methodist Church and the proud wife of Steve and mommy to Morgan and Gavin.
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2 Responses to Messy Change

  1. Carl Groth says:

    That was a nice musing Monica. Sort of like the sermon Mary and I heard last Sunday. Hope you’re having fun at your new church. Best regards, Carl and Mary

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