All my life I’ve wished I could sing. Well, I can sing, I just can’t sing really well. And I do sing, much to the displeasure of those who ride with me in the car or stand next to me in church. I LOVE to sing – especially when it comes to praising God through song! Throw on Kim Walker singing, “How He Loves” and I’ll be the first one to start belting lyrics at the top of my lungs! Click HERE for the video . . . enjoy and belt along with me!
Growing up, I remember the many times I wished I had different hair, was taller, was able to be talented in this area or that, or even wishing my feet were smaller! I compared myself with other girls at school, compared the guys I dated with the guys they dated, and found myself envying what they had, wishing I had that stuff as well. Yes, it was wrong, and certainly not healthy. But, at that point in my life, I couldn’t appreciate all that made me . . . me. I remember other girls saying how they wished they had hair like mine, or teeth as straight as mine, or whatever, only to have me struggle to accept their compliment because I couldn’t see those good qualities for myself.
I’m 42 years old now. I’m still short. I still wish I was a talented singer. But, as much as I may wish I had gifts that I don’t, I can appreciate the gifts I DO have – the gifts God HAS gifted me with. You know, it’s amazing how quickly I stop envying others when I begin to recognize the gifts within myself. Have you noticed that? When we focus on just ourselves instead of comparing ourselves with others, we can really accomplish so much more in life!
I’m currently putting together a four-week study for 4th & 5th grade girls that will tackle self-esteem issues and dealing with “girl pressures” in regards to trying to fit in, being pretty enough, and loving yourself for who you are. This evolved from an email I received from a mom of a 5th grade girl whose daughter is struggling right now – she’s the tallest kid in her class, starting her period before the other kids, has red hair and freckles, etc. She is going through the same “why me’s” and “I wish I had/didn’t have’s” that all of us probably encountered during our “tween” years. My hope is that I can help build up their feeling of self-worth and self-esteem as I help build up their faith in the God who created them to be just who they are. I covet your prayers as I enter into these sessions – thank you!
Until then, I plan to focus on who God created ME to be. I’m taking inventory of the gifts God has given me, measuring how I’m using those gifts for the good of the Kingdom, and even making note of those things about myself I’m not so jazzed about (and perhaps praying through some growth in those areas). I’ve always felt that I can’t be a good leader for others until I take a long, hard look at myself first. So, by March (when I lead this study), I hope to be full of wisdom for these girls and, most importantly, opened to the Holy Spirit so I can be guided to share the right words at the right time. Wish me luck! And, my dear friends, consider the gifts God has given you – remember that you are unique, and that may be the best gift of all! :)